I'M OUTTA WORDS BUT I'M SURE IT'LL NEVER LAST

7.27.2015

Yiruma's Short Cover

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Kiss the Rain

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River Flows in You

7.25.2015

I wish we could understand each other

I wish they could understand...
When I hang out with a boy, it doesn't mean he's my bf
I'm a teenager, I don't always have the best attitude
I try to make the best decision for myself
I'm young and want to have fun
If I'm out all night it doesn't mean I'm drinking or doing drugs
Not all my friends can be a bad influence


I wish I could understand...
They worry if a boy will hurt me
They want me to be a good girl
They don't want me to take the wrong path
They're afraid if I pick the wrong friends
Because society is a trap

-Danise

7.24.2015

A letter to you

We've done a lot of things that we will never regret
Those moments I will never forget
It's hard for me to cheer up
I can't remember how to wear a smile
I'm feeling so blue

You've been here with me through ups and downs
Be willing to walk on by the outskirts of all towns
Just to help me get through my problems all along
Now that you're gone
Things will never go back to the way they were before
We have to let each other go
I guess I have to be strong

I love you, il mio amico.
See you again...

-Danise

A second goodbye

I wish I could go back in time
I want things to go back to the way they used to be
You and me together
You were there when nobody else was
Truth is, now we are apart

Seeing you there in silence
All I can do is pretending I'm fine
You stare at me with words left unspoken
I wipe my  tears every now and then
I know we're not fine

But you should have known that you'll always be with me
Whenever and wherever I go
I really miss you but we'll meet again someday
Say hello to the new beginning
And a good bye to bad ending
Here I am standing on my own
I gotta move on and let you go
I gotta live my life without you here

I wish this is our last goodbye
I'll be waiting for a "Hello again" 
And no more goodbye...


-Danise

Broken Dreams

A couple years ago, I was just a young boy
Sat under the  moonlight with her
Spent our night with kind of serious talk
Promised not to hurt each other
Promised to stay true with her
Promised to be with her through ups and downs
Had a beautiful dream about future 
Wondered about marriage 
Grew old together with precious kids
Wished the kids to be good people
Had a perfect life with family

Time passed by
That moment we've been waiting for has come
Until the day we've been dreaming of has gone
She messed up our life, fucked up our plans
The hopes vanished away
Look at me
Look into my eyes
Could you see what we have made?
Be strong we could make it through, you said

I was broken into pieces
I was drowned into the bitter truth
Suddenly remembering my  dreams to have a perfect family
I gotta keep pushing on, I gotta keep my head held high
I won't blame on her for the mistakes
I will help her to fix everything
I will support her to the way it has to be

Time passed by
That rough moment has gone
It became a bad memories
I thank God for the guardian angels
Who always helps
Who always be there
Who always supports
Who always keeps promises
I thank God for the problems 
Which made us who we are now


-Danise

7.23.2015

A place called home

Feeling tense, it's so hard to breathe, as every night I cry so desperately
In a place called home
The safest place, they said
A place where I shouldn't feel so scared to talk, so scared to joke, or so scared to laugh
A place where I could sleep tight at night
A place where I could share joy and sorrow
A place where I grow up

Everything was fine until that day
That day when you knew what you shouldn't have known
It was just a small mistake you couldn't tolerate
Fuck chance. It doesn't exist in my life
It sticks out so much in your mind
And for some reason when I succeed, you nod and say good, then put it behind

This tension between us, I can't take it anymore 
I'm wondering why I'm still here
I wish I could disappear and get out of here
I don't want to see disappointment on your face anymore

I'd give my money and car for a sweet escape
To a place where I could hang on the beach with toes in the sand
To a place where I could feel the warmth of sun
To a place where I could be free not giving a shit
No more anger and tears
No more pain and cry
I'd rather be somewhere else, alone

That day will come, when you put down his mug and instead of a shrug, walk to my bed and you wish you could give me a hug and whisper you love me
But too late, I just can't feel a tear drops
You'll be sorry that
 I'm finally free..
In a place called home


-Danise

7.21.2015

A letter to daughter

Hello, I'm 50 years old father and I have the only daughter. I'm so sad to know how time flies so fast.. She's 21 years old now. I'm sad to know that she's getting older. Honestly, I'm not ready to watch her grow but I have to.
I wish she knew that I really love her. Even though sometimes I just can't show her how much I love her.

 Does she know that I always worry when she hasn't reached home at night?
Does she know that I always worry if she replaces me with another man?
Does she know that I'm afraid that I can't give her the best of me?
Does she know that I remind your mom to text you?
Does she know that I remind your mom to call you and make sure you're fine?
Does she know that I'm afraid if I fail to take care of you?
Does she know that I really want to cry and hug you tight when you have to leave home?
Does she know that I could just say "take care" and wipe my tears?
Does she know that I work hard and make money for you?
Does she realize that?


My daughter...
I still remember that time we played together
I still remember that time we went to mall and asked for a doll
I still remember that time you danced and sang for me
I still remember that time you won and said "I'm the winner, daddy!"
I still remember that time you called me every night when I wasn't home
I still remember you said "good night daddy" and kissed me
I still remember you whispered to me "I love you daddy"
And other good memories I can't ever forget..



My daughter...
I'm sorry if I can't fulfil your need, I just dont want to spoil you..
I'm sorry if I get mad if you make mistake, I just want you to be a good girl..
I'm sorry for being overprotective, I just want you to live a good life..
I'm sorry I don't let you to come home late, because I know that nightlife is bad..
I'm sorry for making too many rules, I just dont wan't you take a wrong path..

But dear, you should know that
I'm the one who will be proud to see you graduate soon..
I'm the one who will smile to see you become a person you want to be..
I'm the one who will cry to see you have a new life with the right man you choose someday..
I won't let anybody hurt you..
I don't want to see you cry..
I'll always be your first love..
I'll always do my best for you..

Oh my beloved daughter, I just want you to know that I love you...so much.
No matter how old you are, you're still daddy's little girl.

Regards,
Your old father.