I'M OUTTA WORDS BUT I'M SURE IT'LL NEVER LAST

4.14.2012

High expectation vs False hope

I'm currently facing a sort of weirdo probs. Whether it's just a fantasy or reality. But I feel so..
I dunno where start coz i have no idea what's been happened with me, myself. I wonder why i could be this dumb, so obsessive, so absurd. All i know is we started off incredible, evenmore my pals said confidently that my "young wishes" could be granted right away. It's like "Who would have ever knew that we'd be more than friends?" Hahahaha.

Who aint glad to hear that? No one! But it made me expecting more, more, and more.
At first i thought so, coz it's like u pointed every signs straight to me.
It's been 15552000 seconds i've been waiting for, i've been wasting on, i've been expecting more.

So, lemme get this straight. U were leading me on, keeping me waiting for something that wasn't there, letting me get my hopes up for u, acting like u cared, and allowing me to start liking u more and more everyday coz u didnt wanna hurt me????? U're never gonna know what it's like.

I was wondering what what's better known as.. Me with high expectation or u with ur false hope.
I do really know whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly, so if it's the best for u to walk away, i don't mind. And i do know i just cant take a more step towards u coz all that's waiting is regret.
Who would have known how bitter this would taste??
U seemed kinda distant lately,  though i know what's wrong how could i be so sure if u never say watcha feel?
But thx for teaching me not to get my hopes up easily, to accept the reality with sincerity no matter how worst it is, and for the 12012012 (:

U can't bandage the damage. U never really can fix my heart.

-DD-

4.08.2012

4.01.2012

Happy sweet 17th b'day, Shafa!

First, i'd like to congratulate my sweetie, Shafa ND for her 17th b'day. Many happy returns and best wishes for your b'day afterwards. I hope your b'day was all that u hoped for.
Me and others recieved Shafa's invitation to her b'day party. Well it's our first time to attend the "sweet 17th b'day party" this year hehehe.
Everybody looked so glamour. The dresscodes were a bit fancy. Nightgown dress for the girls and tuxedo for the boys.
We played some games, had dinner, and took so many shots. Here are some!


Maya - Me - Ditha

3.29.2012

THE HUNGER GAMES

"HAPPY HUNGER GAMES AND MAY THE ODDS BE EVER IN YOUR FAVOR"Well i just cant get it outta my mind, I call it by "stuck quotes syndrome" haha :pI watched The Hunger Games two days ago with Sujan and Gerhana. I've been waiting for this movie to be shown in cinema and hell yeah i could watch it eventually!This is very very very recommended movie of the year i guess. Maybe some of u dunno what The Hunger Games are.The Hunger Games are an annual event in which one boy and one girl aged 12 to 18 from each of the 12 districts surrounding the Capitol are selected by lottery to compete in a televised battle in which only one person can survive.Sounds creepy, aint?!





3.12.2012

As free as the wind blows

Thank God I've passed midterm exam week. This is a life.... Yes, words can't even describe what I feel but "As free as the wind blows" comes close :))
May me and #S1LENCE will get the best as we did. No matter how low the score we got, we're proud of being honest.
Xx

3.01.2012

CHILDHOOD CANCER AWARENESS (late post)






Well "childhood cancer awareness" was the day that i had been waitin' for. Me + #S1LENCE + Didi (Tarakanita GS) + Ega (Science 4) joined that event in Jakarta (started from FX mall). Tired enough but completey fun! 
FYI, Huga lent me basketball shorts coz i didnt know what to wear :-/
That was the first time I wore it. Pathetic, ain't? lmao
We went there by bus but some were "nebeng" HAHAHAHA -__-" I got excited a night before so that  I couldn't sleep tight. I slept along the way till arrived @ FX. This was where the journey started B-)
We walked for 1 hour (FX-Polda-Semanggi-FX). Felt so WAW after burning fat :P
D'massive entertained us by singing their songs, Yuga & Sena were lucky enough to sing together.
And at noon we looked for some restaurants, as usual we didn't know where to go or what we were gonna eat then. Soooo we walked (again) to Sency, burning fat before lunch.
We got there but... we still didn't know what to eat exactly. And I had smoked beef from sushi groove for lunch.
I-was-so-full-that-I-couldnt-stand-it-anymore-yeah-all-i-need-was-bed-time.
Had a plan to back home at 3 PM but raining. Kept waiting patiently for our bus to come and did many silly things.
We caught the bus then back home :p
xx